Winter Ruins My Day

Today was the COLDEST day we have had yet.  I am aware that it's nowhere near as bad as some places in the country (our high was 37), but we southern girls are just not used to this climatic abuse.  I was less than halfway through my evening walk with G and I HAD to turn around.  Keep in mind that I never, ever truncate exercise voluntarily.  Not only was I freezing, but I had to pee (did you know that being cold makes you need to pee more often? It is slightly complicated, cold alters some of your hormones, see the link or google "cold diuresis").

Now I am home, having relieved hydrostatic pressure and esconced myself from the vicious arctic winds...but having major full-stomach anxiety.  I will make up for the walking easily tomorrow, I have a crazy schedule that involves lots of shuttling across campus.  But right now I just feel disgusting, I ate too big of a lunch too late in the day and it is sitting like a boulder in my belly.  It would be so incredibly easy to go do a few loops on the workout DVD to 1) warm up my poor hypothermic system and 2) vent anxiety . . . but I won't let myself do it.  Just this morning H. and I were talking about how much exercise still controls my life, and my frustration over how much time it monopolizes.  Beyond my southernized whining about the cold, which may seem petty, it really does stress my heart (thanks to ED I have had issues with weakend/irregular heart in the past). I've had chest pains on and off all day, and I doubt that doubling up my evening workout will help matters.

So, sitting here, entering data and listening to the director's commentary on my Lost DVD, trying to distract myself. Counting hours until my normal evening workout (which won't be lengthened to compensate for this afternoon) and wondering what it would be like to be a normal person snuggling under a blanket with hot chocolate on a cold day.