Boy Therapy

I was most definitely having a dark period last week, but am starting to pull out of that and see the world through slightly less grimy glasses. A big thing that has helped over the past few days has been spending time with three of my favorite menfolk. (Please don't let this offend any feminist sentiments you may hold, believe me I do not think females need "taking care of" by males, don't get me wrong. My Girl Night session with my friend the other night was actually the biggest booster of the entire week, but I already wrote about that, and it just happens all the people I saw socially this weekend possess Y chromosomes.)

T:

Drove up to visit on Saturday (3 hour trip). Despite trading novel-length emails every day, it has been forever since we actually saw each other. It went really well. He is ultra-attentive (seriously, he is like a human G.; he even followed me to the salad bar at lunch just to talk to me while I got my leafy stuff, even though he wasn't getting anything), so after having a stressful couple of weeks it was nice to just get to be the princess for a day. We had lunch, came back to my place to talk, half-watch Gran Torino, talk, play some cribbage, talk. Then we got coffee and went for a walk, talk talk talked...I know he wanted to stay longer, but as much as I like him the ED is still stronger than my feelings for him, I'm afraid...so he was sort of kicked out in time for me to stick to normal evening/night rituals. Baby steps. He wants to plan a weekend trip to the beach sometime soon, that will be a good chance to challenge myself.

J:

I drove to see him yesterday (3 hour trip). It was SO nice to spend time with him! Even though I had never been to his new city before, it felt like coming home just because he was there. I got to see his new place, then we walked around the historic district in his town and had lunch. He gave me the tour around campus, showed me his new office, etc, etc, then we went to a botanical garden and walked around talking. It's interesting how different my feelings were about seeing him vs T. With T. it was an excited kind of good, with J. just a platonic, comfortable kind of good, and both did wonders for my mood. J. had helpful advice about the T. situation, it was nice to have a male perspective. Also, I think that heating things up with T. has helped me to resolve any confusion about what I feel for J., because it is much, much different.

Brother:

My brother absolutely cracks me up, I had some hilarious text conversations with him this weekend. He is so freaking intelligent, and kids in our family speak Facetious before they speak English, so once we get going in a back-and-forth it is quite entertaining.

All the things that had me so worried/stressed are still there, but the mental bruises from the initial blows are starting to heal. I know I need to just put on my big girl panties and Deal, and remind myself of all the things that I still have to be thankful for.