'What About Bob' was one of my favorite movies when I was growing up. It's about a guy with OCD that manages to completely frustrate his psychologist, he becomes semi-stalkerish but in an innocent, needy way that you can't help but love. It also brings out a lot of the psychologist's (Dr. Leo Marvin) neuroses, too. It's a funny movie, I swear, I'm just not very good at 'splaining plots.
Sometimes when I'm feeling overwhelmed with things--especially tackling ED challenges--I have to make myself stop and picture Bill Murray doing his "baby steps, baby steps" chant. One thing at a time, little increments that add up to bigger accomplishments in the long run.
Technically I know the amount I plan to add isn't extremely significant, but it seems like a pretty big deal to me and I'm nervous. In my pictures from this past weekend, I think my face is filling out too much and I really, really, really hate that. I just keep trying to tell myself to do it for my bones, my teeth, my heart, my hair, etc, not to mention my mind. Or what's left of it, anyway.
Ok enough neurotic rambling. Tomorrow morning, one more notch in the smackdown on the ED, hooah.
If you play the clip make sure to watch to the end, that's the funniest part, and it's really how I feel about this whole mess most days. Step, step, step, AAAAH!
(By the way, when I Googled the movie to find the clip for this post I discovered a Baby Steps t-shirt inspired by the move, now I have something to add to this year's Santa List... =p)
5 comments:
It's a step in the right direction - preparing yourself mentally is 99% of the battle.
I hope you can do it tomorrow.
What about Bob always made me laugh. Though completely exaggerated, it made the point well how hard it is to live with a mental illness and try to change.
What about Bob also reminds me a lot of Monk. I think there is a similar episode where Monk is talking about baby steps.
I know bumping up your meal plan is hard, but I'm really happy to see you take that iniative. I've been trying to do something similar with breakfast as well and remind myself that it's a really good thing to start out with a lot of fuel.
hang in there, Cammy : ) You can do it.
love this movie! and the idea of baby steps... often part of the whole 'ed/perfectionist' mindset can be problematic even through the recovery process when you think it has to be done perfectly or all at once, anything short of that is seen as failure. In reality, any movement in the right direction is a huge success and a major lesson i had to learn throughout recovery is to be gentle with myself...throughout the ups and downs :)
p.s. good luck with your goal!
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