What, two posts in one day, on a weekend when page hits are typically way down in the red anyway?
I reread my last post and realize I left out a hugely important coda to the whole message about looking at the Big Picture to see how good things actually are, being patient enough to let things develop, etc.
I think that taking a step back and acknowledging everything you've got is significant for reasons more than just being glad you're have X job or have X friend or are doing this or that. That is nice in itself, but I think the most valuable part of it is a reminder to not let those things go. Especially since people that have overcome EDs or other issues have worked especially hard to obtain and achieve their goals on top of fighting the disease. Don't work that hard just to let so much slip through your fingers.
I'm trying to be hyperaware that giving into the stress, uncertainty, or other disruptions coming up this summer by defaulting to ED behaviors puts me at risk to lose every single item that I listed and so much more, and I think that was the point that I should have made to conclude the last post.
Could have just edited that post but know not everyone re-views them, so this seemed better. If you read this before the last one you may be entirely lost, apologies.
I also feel a little self-conscious that the last two posts might seem highly self-absorbed. Somebody tell me something about your weekend, or something that you have that you wouldn't want to lose to the ED?
love y'all.
4 comments:
Thanks for sharing your insight and the prompt!
One my best friends got terrible stomach flu yesterday, so I stayed with him while he got an IV, sipped gatorade, and generally had a miserable day. As little fun as it was for both of us, I'm glad I was able be there for him, which reminds me that I need to take care of myself to be sure I can take care of others. I've had far better health than my behavior warrants, but I really can't afford to play games with my health if I want to be the friend beside the hospital bed and not in it.
Sorry if this was weird/morbid, but my friend's flu and Friday's xkcd comic have really had me thinking about illness.
Self-Absorbed? That's not even possible. No worries there. The posts don't come across as self-absorbed; they come across as incredibly grateful, and that's really beautiful. Sometimes, when you've had an ED or other obstacles, when you step back and realize how much you do have, the gratitude can fill your whole body in a really visceral sort of way.
It's so awesome that you think this way. Seriously.
I'm with Laura, not self-absorbed at all. It's wonderful to hear about how things improve all of the time for you and to see all the gratitude that you have for the wonderful things that happen with recovery and just life in general. Reading things like that definitely make me want to keep working hard at recovery. Keep sharing that stuff, it's great to hear!
I was flirty and touchy and fun, which, at my worst, never surfaces. When I hold tight to one part of myself, I wind up holding tight to all of it. So being flirty and touchy and fun and in a beautiful sunshine day. (=
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