*hugs* Was crying helpful? Like even though it was completely random, do you feel sorta refreshed from it? Do you feel like a pressure cooker has been released of pressure for a bit??
I hope you're feeling better today. This has happened to me a few times recently. The things that I think would be normal to cry over I don't, and then at odd times when nothing has even happened I feel an overwhelming sadness and the tears start coming. Your "face leaking" expression reminded me of my little sister- when she was little and she would start crying she would say "My eyes are dripping!" And become even more upset. :)
Oh dear, I hope you feel better today. I am still rather bewildered when I randomly cry over things - sometimes the fact that I am so taken aback by this novelty actually stops me crying :P Leaking faces are not scary or a sign of weakness, it's just a helpful way for bodies to inform their occupants that something hurts. I want to give you a virtual hug but I don't know if you would feel that I've been hanging around your blog long enough for that! Oh well, *hug* anyway
You've made some big changes over the past few weeks, and that's bound to be stressful and emotional. As much as I hate crying, sometimes it feels better just to heave it all out.
I find a good cry very refreshing. I tend to have Leaking Face about once a month ;) Hope you're feeling okay and it was just a little necessary emotion :)
I think Carrie's probably right that this could be a result of the changes you've been making. You've accomplished a lot, but it has obviously taken so much hard work.
I just hope you felt better for your cry rather than worse.
I remember being so amazed when I finally cried again after months of not crying when I was really ill. It means you are getting better. Instead of dealing with numbness and not really feeling anything, you are beginning to connect with emotions. Unfortunately, that probably means that you are connecting with the pain, anxiety, and "unknowingness" of the changes you are making and the relationship you are in. When I began to cry again and notice beauty again, it was physically striking how unfamiliar it was. That was when I realized that I was coming back, and that the struggle I was going through was worth it. Keep pushing through!!
Now that I'm back to myself, I cry about every 10 days and it is often random, if that makes you feel better :)
I think crying is somethng evolutionary very old, very physologcal and much much healthier expression of emotions (although you can't identify them)than destructive ED behaviors. You are shining star Cammy, so look at it as on a part of being healthier.
Btw. I've had recently a semi-drunk conversation with a male-friend about how not crying, being ashamed about crying (especally in men) definitely sucks:)
Something is wrong with our culture when we accept self harm, dangerous thinness, overexercising, diets, "food" that has nothing to do with food etc., but we are not allowing ourselves to cry.
Still reading your blog, usually SO inspiring, but not so much time and language ablty to comment. Hugs ola
I'm sorry you feel uncomfortable about this... I probably would too, actually. I never, ever cry. But sometimes I wish I did, because as much as I hate it, it can feel sort of cathartic. Did it help at all??
Hi Cammy- I just started reading your blog and you seem like you are making great progress. I've been on the same journey and for what it's worth - the thing that helped me the most - by far! - is understanding the root of things - why I feel so out of control, why I am so desperate to have control over everything. In many ways, this has been a lot harder than the behavioral stuff - but 100 times more effective. I hope your therapist is making you look at this stuff. Best of luck to you.
i am so behind on blogs but ijust wanted to late-edition i cried for no known reason yesterday too.. damn i gotta say i felt better afterwards though! i was amotionless for so long so im sure theres plenty of built up emotions that will come whenever they want to!
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*hugs* Was crying helpful? Like even though it was completely random, do you feel sorta refreshed from it? Do you feel like a pressure cooker has been released of pressure for a bit??
*huggles*
With love and compassion xo
I hope you're feeling better today. This has happened to me a few times recently. The things that I think would be normal to cry over I don't, and then at odd times when nothing has even happened I feel an overwhelming sadness and the tears start coming.
Your "face leaking" expression reminded me of my little sister- when she was little and she would start crying she would say "My eyes are dripping!" And become even more upset. :)
Sometimes we just need to let ourselves cry and get out all that liquidy pent up who knows what. How are you feeling now?
Lots of love my dear :)
Oh dear, I hope you feel better today. I am still rather bewildered when I randomly cry over things - sometimes the fact that I am so taken aback by this novelty actually stops me crying :P
Leaking faces are not scary or a sign of weakness, it's just a helpful way for bodies to inform their occupants that something hurts. I want to give you a virtual hug but I don't know if you would feel that I've been hanging around your blog long enough for that! Oh well, *hug* anyway
I hate it when my face leaks, too!
You've made some big changes over the past few weeks, and that's bound to be stressful and emotional. As much as I hate crying, sometimes it feels better just to heave it all out.
Hugs!
I find a good cry very refreshing. I tend to have Leaking Face about once a month ;)
Hope you're feeling okay and it was just a little necessary emotion :)
I think Carrie's probably right that this could be a result of the changes you've been making. You've accomplished a lot, but it has obviously taken so much hard work.
I just hope you felt better for your cry rather than worse.
I remember being so amazed when I finally cried again after months of not crying when I was really ill. It means you are getting better. Instead of dealing with numbness and not really feeling anything, you are beginning to connect with emotions. Unfortunately, that probably means that you are connecting with the pain, anxiety, and "unknowingness" of the changes you are making and the relationship you are in. When I began to cry again and notice beauty again, it was physically striking how unfamiliar it was. That was when I realized that I was coming back, and that the struggle I was going through was worth it. Keep pushing through!!
Now that I'm back to myself, I cry about every 10 days and it is often random, if that makes you feel better :)
I think crying is somethng evolutionary very old, very physologcal and much much healthier expression of emotions (although you can't identify them)than destructive ED behaviors. You are shining star Cammy, so look at it as on a part of being healthier.
Btw. I've had recently a semi-drunk conversation with a male-friend about how not crying, being ashamed about crying (especally in men) definitely sucks:)
Something is wrong with our culture when we accept self harm, dangerous thinness, overexercising, diets, "food" that has nothing to do with food etc., but we are not allowing ourselves to cry.
Still reading your blog, usually SO inspiring, but not so much time and language ablty to comment.
Hugs ola
Wow and: your lttle post and Sarah's wise comment made me actually WANT to have some "GOOD CRY" (unfortunately I was never good in expressng feelngs).
i hate it when my face leaks too ...
i am also one who rarely cries - and i recently had a similar experience, only i was in my T's office. even more uncomfortable ...
hope that it helped - you have had a lot changing in your world recently.
I'm sorry you feel uncomfortable about this... I probably would too, actually. I never, ever cry. But sometimes I wish I did, because as much as I hate it, it can feel sort of cathartic. Did it help at all??
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I've definitely done that before, scaring the shit out of my parents.
I hope it was cathartic for you. *hugs*
HUUUUUUUGE HUG.
Hi Cammy-
I just started reading your blog and you seem like you are making great progress. I've been on the same journey and for what it's worth - the thing that helped me the most - by far! - is understanding the root of things - why I feel so out of control, why I am so desperate to have control over everything. In many ways, this has been a lot harder than the behavioral stuff - but 100 times more effective. I hope your therapist is making you look at this stuff. Best of luck to you.
i am so behind on blogs but ijust wanted to late-edition i cried for no known reason yesterday too.. damn i gotta say i felt better afterwards though! i was amotionless for so long so im sure theres plenty of built up emotions that will come whenever they want to!
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