Weekend Wins

Believe it or not, I was not only social but spontaneously social yesterday [gasp].  I had only halfway planned on going to a guest lecture on campus in the afternoon, and I ended up doing not only that but also going out to the weekly grad student happy hour later in the evening.  I planned to stay an hour and ended up not leaving for 2.5 hours because I was having such a good time (because of the conversation, not heavy drinking type of good time).  It was an incredible morale booster.

I was initially stressed as hell that it messed up my routine and I ended up not getting 100% of my exercise time in for the day, but I was so glad I did it.  It was good to have a reminder that I'm actually really good with people and enjoy being in social settings once I get over the hurdle of gritting my teeth and making myself go.  I have a high social activation energy even if the product is worth it, special love to all of my nerdfriends that got the science allusion without needing the link. ;)

And I did not restrict my food at all even though my schedule was shot to hell.  [insert imaginary gold star sticker here].

So here is where I contradict what I said in my last post. I was griping about how there isn't really anyone in my department that I like or care to see.  That was a bit of an exaggeration: there are a few people that I'm friendly with and are good friend-potential, they just work in a different building so I never seem them when I'm on campus, unless it's at a department-wide event. And we all do fieldwork and never seem to be in town on the same weekends. Thus it's easy to feel isolated even though there are incipient friends around in theory.

I also learned that I'm not the only one that is super-frustrated by my labmate; apparently there's a broad consensus that he's pretty much the village idiot of the department, but the only person that doesn't see that is our adviser, who exists in a stereotypical absent-minded professor fog. So that has absolutely no relevance on this blog, but it was a big relief to know that I'm not alone in having a hard time with the guy; I literally lose sleep from frustration over the dynamics in our lab sometimes.  At least I'm on the home stretch here.

Therapy last week: was pretty great.  My therapist, T., is great; she probably has the most similar personality to mine of any therapist I've seen. It's nice; she really, really seems to "get" me on a lot of issues, both big and small.  I mentioned my hypothesis about body fat-anxiety link to her, and we spent most of the time talking about my eating habits and food stuff to see how it can be adjust to help me start building a bit of weight without freaking out.  I've been seeing T for a couplefew months now and it was the first time we'd really discussed food. Anyway, left very glad that I stuck with her despite some initial doubts.

Just 3 weeks from Match visit.  Not that I'm counting or anything; if that were the case I'd know it's exactly 19 days away. . . oops. I hate these gaps but am glad that we're good at staying connected, I think the weeks of flirting from a distance really make the reunions that much more satisfying and definitely keep us from taking each other for granted.

Anyway, I have actually been in a fantabulous mood today, despite it being a chilly, gray day outside.  I wish I could bottle this feeling.

I hope everyone's having a great weekend, love y'all!