CRT?

Today has been a lot calmer and quieter inside my head.  Or maybe just more exhausted.  Whatever works.

I really, *really* wish I knew what makes my brain feel like it's about to explode one day and then be stressed but manageable the next.

I went to therapy yesterday afternoon.  The first time crying in front of a given therapist is always rather awkward.  I really have gotten to like T, though, even though I wasn't sure about her at first.

I had a training session today, and added an extra snack afterwards (note that's not a "eat something now and subtract the calories from lunch" snack, it's actually--gasp--extra food). I'm still not sure if I'm right about the fat-anxiety link, but it seems strongly possible to me, and even if that's not the issue... I know I need to be careful about at least maintaining and probably putting on some weight and, yes, fat. I really did go into the training thing wanting to get stronger and probably add a bit of weight, so I'm trying hard to make sure it stays positive and healthy.

T. scored major points today by e-mailing me a few journal articles to read and see if I'm interested in trying out the approaches they used with people recovering from anorexia.  She's getting to know and appreciate the research nerd that I am, and it made me feel legitimized that she sent me primary literature to consider instead of trying a Mickey Mouse explanation of the therapy approach.

They're about Cognitive Remediation Therapy--which, from what I gather, seems to be a way to ground people that are too freaked out and anxious to focus on doing CBT initially.  It basically just looks like a lot of little cognitive drills to help increase flexibility and set-shifting skills. I guess I just gave you the Mickey Mouse explanation, apologies. :/

Has anyone ever done CRT, did it seem to be useful?

Just as a side note, it bothered me that one of the papers is a case study that did 2- and 6-month followups with the patient, and the data table clearly showed that she gained a good bit of weight from baseline to 2-month point, but then lost significant weight between the 2- and 6-month followups, enough to drag her below healthy BMI again--and no mention of that weight loss was made in the paper.  It seemed significant to me.

Also, I'm going to mush for a minute and say I really love my boyfriend.  He seems to be able to pull smiles out of me when nothing else can.  I hate that I worry him so much sometimes.

Still a lot to stress about, but my brain feels less like a hurricane today.  Thanks for all the supportive comments; really hope everyone has a good weekend.

Love y'all.