Even post-tattoo, though, the needle wasn't any easier during the blood draw! It's not the pain that bothers me, but the general concept of something poking through my skin just makes me queasy.
But yay for no more low thryoid levels, even sans medication. It's amazing how your body can take care of itself when you're not forcing it to cannibalize itself every day. Recoveryisgoodrecoveryisgoodrecoveryisgood, I keep trying to repeat that whenever I feel myself slipping into Blob mode.
I like my physician, he is nice and fairly hot, but he is also clueless when it comes to EDs. He asked why I wanted a Dexa, and I had to point out to him that having an eating disorder for nine years and never getting a period puts a person at risk for bone loss, and I was already diagnosed with osteopenia when I was 17. " Oh yeah," he said, "right, you should definitely have that looked at." Thanks. How much did you pay for that medical degree, anyway?
So then he asked me how my treatment for AN was going (referring to my work with H.), and I said things were "improving," and that seemed to satisfy him. "Ok, so you're eating alright?" If only "eating alright," were all it took to make things ok, if only.
So, Dr. R is obviously not an ED expert, but I got what I needed out of the appointment with no major trauma involved, and I was glad I resisted the urge to play scale games, it was a nice validation of the fact that so much of that is pointless, and it's not worth it to spend valuable time/energy abusing yourself for a relatively arbitrary readout on some piece of equipment in the doctor's office.
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Hi! Just found your blog and look forward to reading through it some more.
I'm glad the appointment went well. Too bad your doc is a bit dim on ED, though.
During my eating disorder, my therapist encouraged me to get a full check-up because I also hadn't had a period in a long time, had heart palpitations and other problems. I went to my university's health clinic, where all they did is send me for a pregnancy test even though I told them the chances of me being pregnant were slim to none. The sheer cluelessness of some doctors and their hesitation to discuss mental illness astounds me sometimes.
Cammy, good to hear the appt. went well and displacing your energy elsewhere was worth the "no big deal." Very glad about your thryroid levels as I know you've had issues with that. Something that you reminded me of about your thing with needles going into the skin. Ok, and they is probably very very silly, but have you ever thought dye drawing a banana skin? I know very corny. I practiced that way, so I could do dog shots. It's very different of course, but I was just reminded of that.
Anyway, I'm wondering has H. ever recommended a Dr. for you to go to? I think you were going by insurance, right? I just thought she might know of ones that were a little more competent. Not that you didn't get what you need, but still, I think there could be other things lurking. Something to think about.
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