I'm having a hard week so far. Still having lots of feelings about missing Nana. Tired of my brothers acting like assholes and my mom being sad. Match and I have been a bit more on eggshells than usual over the last week or two.
Of course the way my brain deals with this is to divert attention from Hard Things to Food Things. I absolutely could not stop the brain-spinning about food choices all day today. I feel totally worn out. I wish food didn't exist so I could think about something else.
I actually did have two splurge days in less than a week over the last week, maybe not super big splurges but spontaneous eating out, which is a win. It just seems like today a huge hurricane of body discomfort and food-obsessing swept into my brain and wouldn't leave. I'm so sick of this.
Nothing objectively bad happened today. No one was mean to me, nothing went wrong, no unexpected problems popped up. But for some reason I was so worn out and bleak feeling by 6 pm that I couldn't really do anything except call Match sobbing. I dunno?
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