2 ways I know I could help the problem, yet haven't:
--Mo better breakfast. I have always been one of those I'm Not a Breakfast Person people. And I'm not. So breakfast is by far my lightest meal of the day, and with that plus the way my workout load is highest in the morning, I usually don't have lunch before 1:30, it means I spend about half the day bordering on hypoglycemic and worn out. I think this is the main reason I feel physiologically unbalanced all day.
I think another reason I push calories back later in the day is that for so many years I had such a meager daily allowance of food, that I was super-conscious about not "using it up" too early in the day, so I wouldn't have to go to bed completely hungry (just mostly hungry). Now I am eating enough that I can space it appropriately if I so choose, I just haven't been choosing to because of that old instinctive calorie budgeting habit.
--Workout load itself. Is very high. More than it was before I moved this summer. And it's really just breaking me down. I had good goals about rock climbing and bike riding instead of ritual workouts, to get some fun/functional/non-obsessive activity in, but I haven't been able to give up any of the ritual to make room for them, and have zerozilchnada energy left over after ritual exercise, which means those plans are just not working out. I have way too much free time in between research trips this fall, but I'm spending all of it getting caught up in the same pointless cycle as always.
Despite that, my weight isn't really suffering. Over the last 5 weeks or so I've gained maybe a little under half of what I lost over the summer, but the trend has been positive on that.
Ok, general vent/status update. I'm taking a trip back to my university town to lecture for a class tomorrow. Looking forward to that, although obviously the change in routine always creates some anxiety.
One positive is that my brothers went back to school today, and with mom at school also and dad at work, now I have the house entirely to myself during the day, which makes it way easier for me to cook real meals in the kitchen, at least for breakfast and lunch.
I hope everyone had a fantabulous Labor Day!
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I remember ages ago reading an article on g-cells that made me feel like less of a crazy person around the still feeling starved while being physically full thing. I think incorporating fruit juice was supposed to help. You're more science orientated than I am, does this sound like a real thing? Just the first thing that popped to mind.
Always nice getting to read an update. Take care!
Keep fighting Cammi! You're doing so well under the circumstances! Have you tried adding more protein to your breakfast? It does loads for energy, focus, and stabilizing blood sugar levels. Good luck on your lecture! Will you ever give us an idea of what field you are studying? Or would that be giving out too much info? (I respect and appreciate privacy and anonymity!)
Barbara
I think many of us have done the "save up the calories for later" thing. It took me a while to be OK with eating more earlier in the day. I'm sure your body would LOVE some breakfast and a morning snack! And, you know it would love a little exercise break, but I feel like I'm just stating the obvious and being annoying ;) Good luck with the lecture! Enjoy some time to yourself in the house :)
I thought I had some sort of night bingeing disorder, but as it turns out, a lot of people "save up"! this is something I classically do. Again, like you, I get scarred of blowing the calorie budget. I try to make breakfasts really special, my favorite foods so I look forward to it.
I struggle with exercise too, but I keep busy knitting or doing something semi active like that. I know, easier said then done, but its worth a shot.
yup, i'm a calorie saver too. i was visiting my sister's family this weekend, and they all eat a hearty breakfast. it's the most natural thing in the world. i just drank my coffee and stared. they looked a whole lot happier than i did!
ahhh, an empty house. dreamy. i haven't had time alone in my home in a long time, and it sounds like bliss.
hope you continue to have lots of time to prepare your meals and have some time to yourself.
*hugs* I used to do the 'saving up calories' thing too- I've always loved breakfast, but lunch tends to be my 'skimping' meal because I feel like I should 'save' calories for dinner or something.
In terms of the overstuffed but hungry feeling, have you tried eating more 'calorie dense' foods? Fat is supposed to be good for satiety, and I know that I can eat vast amounts of vegetables without feeling properly satisfied.
Keep fighting, and I really hope you find something that works for you!
I have the same problem with wanting to wait until later in the day to eat. Logically I know eating early is better for you, but I have a mental block saying, "It's too early to eat!"
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